Today is the day... the day that I found out that I am EXPECTING!!! Before I tell you how I found out, I want to backtrack a little.
As many of you may know, our anniversary is June 11. We were married just over two years ago. What many people do NOT know is... I have PCOS which is Poly cystic ovarian syndrome which causes some really weird menstrual cycle problems. I do not ovulate on a normal cycle and I often get my period extremely late. So for the past two years, Donnie and I have been working with my doctors to come up with a way to help us conceive. We were told we probably wouldn't have much trouble as long as we used a medication called clomid. We underwent SIX different cycles with clomid help back in the spring of 2011 with no success. We went through HORRIBLE tests to try and have a baby. We kept this to ourselves because we didn't want to be asked all the time what was going on and when we were going to have a baby. We just tried to ignore the random "when will you become parents" questions because for most of the last two years, those questions have been really painful to answer.
About 6 months ago, Donnie and I stopped trying to get pregnant. We had a few other medical problems come up and we also were both in transition at our jobs so we just held off for a bit to figure out those other things. We were using birth control for about 4 months. I stopped birth control in May.
We planned on going back to my fertility clinic in a few months, little did we know it was going to happen so quick!
Over the last few weeks I have been experiencing symptoms that my doctors thought was my gallbladder. I have been going through tests and everything for that. Not really thinking about much else other than, "Am I going to need my gallbladder removed?!"
Then today, I realized I had not had my normal period symptoms even though I was due for my period today... so I said, "let me take a test, I bet it will be negative but whatever!" Keep in mind, I have been taking pregnancy tests almost every month for the last two years, I am so used to seeing negatives by now. I went and took that test and walked away. 10 minutes later I remembered I had a pregnancy test sitting on the bathroom sink. I went to go check it... sure enough there were two lines! I didn't believe it. I thought for sure I must have picked up an ovulation predictor test instead of a pregnancy test. But nope, I checked the wrapper and it was a pregnancy test! I quickly ran out of the bathroom, called Donnie at the station.
His reaction was awesome! It ended with him saying, "I am nervous, but I will get over that! That's awesome babe!"
After I called him I decided to drink two bottles of water and take another test, this time a digital test. Again, I was SURE it was going to be negative. I thought for sure it had to be a mistake. But nope, ANOTHER POSITIVE. Of course the digital said pregnant and that is when it hit me, I AM PREGNANT, I AM GOING TO BE A MOMMY!!
My emotions today have gone all over, crying tears of joy, laughing, smiling, being nervous, but mostly excited. Even though we have desperately wanted this baby for two years now, it is still such a shock because we weren't even trying and it wasn't even on my radar that I might get pregnant, especially since I thought I would need medicine to help me conceive.
I am scared to lose the baby but I have faith in God and in my body's ability to do what it needs to do. I think I am only 4 weeks along today with a due date of March 8, 2013. The doctor will confirm that with a dating ultrasound. Only time will tell that the baby is healthy with a strong heartbeat.
